Peace In The Midst of Chaos

I have been home for two weeks now. It's been pure bliss. Nothing to do, no where to be, just time to be alone, enjoy a quiet room, make dinner when I want to, and hang out with my parents and go to puppy school with my Mom and Izzy, kick-boxing with my Mom, and just enjoying sweet time at home. I realize how different things are when I come home each time, but there is nothing like being at 'home.

I know that I have found myself thinking man I'm bored, but oh how I will miss that in about a week when my life is in a constant rush with no time to slow down and catch my breath.

In the past few weeks since I have been at home, like I said I've had no responsibilities really, no tests to study for (I found myself looking in my planner to see if I have any upcoming tests, it's sad lol), and really nothing to crazy going on in my life right now. I have no complaints :)

While I am extremely thankful for this, I also realize that there has been mad chaos around me. I have watched some people that I love so dearly go through some difficult days in the their lives, where faith is being tested, unfortunate things are happening, and lessons that are hopefully learned have been taking place. I have watched some people that I love dearly make some poor choices and not even realize the consequences that are possible, but that's life. We all have our moments, and just times in life where we go through the valley.

The more I have sat back and watched, and just really observed everything going on around me, the more I realized how easily I can stress about things that don't ever involve me. It's just pure madness sometimes. I told my Dad about how I was feeling. Basically that my life is going in slow motion right now and I am watching everything else going on around me wondering 'what in the world is happening?' I realize now more than ever how crazy this world is, and how corrupt this world truly is. It breaks my heart if I really think about it....but anywho...

For some reason the last week I have had a Bible story stuck in my head. To be honest, I am not even really sure why. The story of Jesus on the boat with His disciples in the middle of the storm. They were freaking out. I know if I was there, freaking out wouldn't even be the term for it. Jesus simply says to them in my translation - Why are you so afraid, don't you trust me? Where's your faith? - He looks at the raging sea and says - Peace be Still. And everything was quiet.

This is kinda how I envision this in my head.









Still. I can only imagine the power of that moment. The more that I have thought about this, and the more I realize the feelings of heaviness in my own heart for the things going on around me and the powerlessness that I have felt at times, the more I realize how much I have to rely on God to be the one to intervene in HIS timing. This part is hard for me. I was born impatient. But how sweet it is when it is in the Lord's timing. Today, I was getting ready for a party, and I had my ipod on shuffle and the song "Amazing God" by Anthony Evans came on. While I've heard this a million times. The lyrics caught my ear today. It goes something like this...

You’re amazing God, You’re amazing God
You can bear the weight of every heavy heart
You can heal the pain, you can clean the stain
You can turn our tears into songs of praise
You’re amazing God

As I began to think of what this really means, I was overwhelmed at the thought of God taking on all the pain not of just one person that I have been thinking and praying for but all of them, as well as everyone in creation if they call on Him. That is truly amazing.

I am blessed. Not just because things in my life are going well right now, but because I know during the storms of my own life, he has been faithful to me. Just as he was for me, he promises to be that for those that I care about so much. What a blessing to know that everything around us may be changing, things are uncertain, people let us down, jobs fall through, people walk out, and this world is just plain crazy, but God is Faithful, Unchanging, Full of Love and Grace, and begs that we bring our heavy hearts to him so that He can lighten the load we carry.
That is something to truly be thankful for.

I will end this blog with one of my favorite psalms. I can see this verse in my head. Maybe something like this.
The Lord reigns, let the earth be glad; let the distant shores rejoice. Clouds and thick darkness surround him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne. Fire goes before him and consumes his foes on every side. His lightning lights up the world; the earth sees and trembles. The mountains melt like wax before the Lord, before the Lord of all the earth.The heavens proclaim his righteousness, and all the peoples see his glory.