"Out of chaos, life is being found in You."

I've been learning a lot in the last couple of months in my life. It's been a crazy time since August. I don't feel that I have much time to even catch my breath these days, or to blog, but I have been waiting anxiously to sit down & share part of my journey with you.
As I have mentioned a million times in previous blogs, change is hard. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, and at times just plain hard. Regardless, it happens.
God has been speaking to me a lot recently.

A few lessons I have been learning the past couple of months:

Prayer changes me, not God. My day is better when I pray, all day- constant conversation.
Loving is easy when it's someone you get a long with, its difficult with some people- this is when being Christ-like is not an option, but its very difficult.
A reminder that His grace is sufficient for me.
When God calls us to something, He won't leave us stranded. He goes with us.
When we seek the Lord, He promises us an answer, however his timing is key.
Patience is difficult, but with God's help I will learn to be more like him.
Actions speak louder than words.
It's easier to shrug off things that really hurt, then to deal with them.
God has a plan even when I think I've ruined it.
Life is short. We are never promised tomorrow.
I realize I struggle with pride and selfishness more than I thought I did.
A sweet reminder - "Cast all your cares and worries on Him, for He cares for you."
God is creating something beautiful daily out of my life.
God gives rest to the weary.

I guess you could say I've done a lot of reflecting, asking, and just seeking the Lord more than I have in awhile. Being vulnerable can be scary at times, but it has also been some of the best times in the last couple months as I have been broken and open before the Lord asking him to search my heart and life, to show me what He wants for me, and just to refill me when I feel like I am at the end of my rope. Some days I am down on myself thinking I should have this all figured out by now, but then I am reminded that God uses the weak people in this world to lead the strong.
All He asks for is a willing spirit.

I've also done some real thinking about God's plan for my life and His work even in situations that make no sense to me, and just some that I am so sick of because it's hard and it's not my way. Regardless, I have been thinking a lot about being happy, and about joy.

The dictionary defines joy as - to take great pleasure in, or to enjoy.

As I have been thinking about being "happy" ...I realize this isn't something that I am always going to be, however having Joy in the midst of an unhappy situation, or one that is not ideal, is even better. Realizing that God knows what He is doing in and through everything & the fact that I can trust that He will never change, or fail me. I can rest in this truth.
There is Joy in this!

The Bible tells us "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

In my quiet time, in moments of worship in the past couple of weeks, I have found myself being reminded of the places God has brought me from, the closeness of His presence in my daily life, and the truth that He goes before me and will guide me if I truly seek him.

While this season of my life may not be everything I 'thought' it was going to be, The Lord has made himself so real to me. I pray that I am becoming more and more like him everyday. I may not have all of this figured out, but I am striving to be all that God wants me to be.

‎"You delight in truth in the inward being, You teach me wisdom in the secret heart."♥



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