"I've called your name. You're mine. 
When you're in over your head, I'll be there with you. When you're in rough waters, you will not go down. When you're between a rock and a hard place, it won't be a dead end. I paid a huge price for you." 
Isaiah 43- the msg
This has been stirring in my heart for a few months.
I've avoided it for fear that it will not come out as well as I planned.
But I can't get away from it.
So I will trust the Lord with the words.
I enjoy listening to piano music. I do it a lot when I'm alone. 
One of my favorite instrumental tracks is 'Breath of Heaven'
While I usually only hear this around Christmas time, I never knew the words to this song.
One day, I was curious and I looked them up.
Ever since that day, this blog has been stirring in my heart and mind. 
My attention was captured when I read these lines:
"I am waiting in a silent prayer, I am frightened by the load I bear. 
In a world as cold as stone, must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now. Be with me now. 

Do you wonder as you watch my face, 
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am, for the mercy of Your plan.
Help me be strong."
This song was written as the cry of the Virgin Mary's heart. What a scary time for her this must have been. What a heavy load to bear knowing that she was carrying the Son of God. Even someone as incredible as Mary, who was chosen to carry God's son questioned why she was chosen, if she was good enough, and had fears of her own. 
Somewhere along this journey I think we have made it so that being scared, having fear, and being 'real' about how we really are feeling to be something that is wrong or represents weakness. When I searched more into Mary's journey and began to think about the path that she walked, I found this song and the words that were put together so well as the cry of her heart, to be beautiful. 

There is beauty in brokenness. 

While the world may not see it this way, I have learned this to be evident in my own life.
I admire Mary for her honesty, her genuine heart, and for her willingness to carry a load that seemed unbearable at times because that was what the Lord had for her and it was for His plan. 

"Breath of Heaven, Hold me together. Be forever near, Breath of Heaven." 

The sweetest part of her prayer. 
 Rest. Wholeness. Comfort. Peace. Assurance. 
All is found in the One who sent her on the journey.
This is true for each one of us.
I don't know where you find yourself right now. Maybe at the mountain top and thanking God for all the great things going on in your life. Maybe you're in the valley wondering when you will see the light, you're questioning everything, wondering if what you've believed all along is even real. Waiting, for anything, something, to change. Or possibly like me, you know truth in Your heart, but you question the path your on. You question what's next, if you're good enough, you wonder how the Lord is going to use you. 

The road ahead can be scary. It's tiring. It can be heavy.

But there is hope.
In the times of the unknown, rest in the arms of our Heavenly Father.
Lord, breath life into my weary heart.
Be near me. 
You are NOT alone.
I pray that wherever you're at, that like me, you will believe in more than just what you can see at this moment, and that you will hold on. In the unknown, in the dark nights, in the moments of uncertainty, that we may grow to trust the Lord with each step we take. 
To believe in something that is stronger than we are. To believe in the unfailing, unconditional love that died to set us free. To believe in saving grace no matter where we are at. To be real, even during hard times. To be transparent. To be totally surrendered. To rest in His arms. To take Jesus at His word. 

"Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you." 
Psalm 55:22





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