"I need you Jesus to Come to My Rescue, Where else Can I Go?"

This time 4 years ago I feel like I was in this same place, but different.
What am I talking about?!
Let me tell you.

4 years ago this time, I was starting a new chapter of my life that didn't really seem to make sense. While it was exciting on some ends, and supposed to be the 'time of my life' I felt lost, confused, searching, wondering when it would feel like I was in the right place. I feel like I am in this place again except in a little different way. Life is constantly changing and while I am not always the biggest fan of change, I have learned that you can't stop it from happening so it's best to embrace it.

I am beginning to wonder when this time of my life will feel like it's where I am supposed to be, but I am not ever sure it will. This is a transitional year no doubt as I am no longer living on campus, not singing on PR and really school is about all that I am super committed to at this time.  
What's ahead is uncertain. It's scary. I have anxiety often just thinking about it.
As I have said before this is not what we are supposed to do, worrying that... however I am human and have to remind myself daily who holds my tomorrow. 

I wrote this blog to remind myself of a sweet moment that happened 4 years ago, as well as this past week. Hillsong has a song titled Rescue. This was the cry of my heart 4 years ago and I can remember my thoughts in the quietness of those moments when we would sing this in chapel, and this past week at church and kairos it was sung. I was brought back to that moment but also there in the present time as I feel that this is the cry of my heart now. I have no idea where I'm going and what I'm doing. I want to be in the center of God's will and I trust whole heatedly that He will continue to lead and guide me. 
some moments in the day though I just like to think that I am being rescued, that the Creator of the Universe is holding me, ME, in the palm of his hand. 

I want that security. I need that safety and peace. 

I need you Lord. 

 
What do you need to be rescued from?


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  1. At eighty I have just renewed my commitment to do His will for the time I have left. After nine and a half years of coordinating a card ministry at our church, I began to search the scripture and the Lord began dropping ideas all around me. Crosscards.com came in sight, phone calling on sick,shutouts, missing in action from church and the results so far have been a blessing to myself as well as those touched.
    One of my sayings,''after all is said and done, more is said than done seems to be what goes on most of the time. We must redeem the time for soon our time will be no more. Keep the faith and don't look back.

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