life to the fullest

This has been what seems like the busiest week of my life.

I can't believe it's already Thursday.

I am tired, no doubt about it, but what a great week it has been.

I started my second job with Home Health this week and I enjoyed it so much.

40 hours of work plus school this week has left my to-do list unmarked and not many things checked off until today. 

When your a type A personality, this can drive you absolutely crazy!

On top of the business with school and work, we had special services this week for the past 4 nights.

We had an incredible speaker, Susie Shellenberger.

I can honestly say going into this week I wasn't thrilled to have something every night but God showed up in an incredible way each night and how refreshing it was!

I was challenged this week.

To exam my own heart and life.

I've been thinking a lot since the services about something she challenged us to think about this week.

Am I living in the fullness of God everyday?

Am I settling for good or better when He is offering His best?

"I have come, so that you may have life,  and have it to the fullest."

John 10:10 

I wish I could take you back to Tuesday night and let you hear exactly how she presented the message.

This week I realized some different things about myself.

I was unsure if my answer was a yes.

Not a good thing, but I am thankful for the awareness of where I'm at.

But how do I begin to live in the fullness of God?

To experience his fullness REGARDLESS of my circumstances.

Sheer. Obedience.

I think the scariest part of this realization for me this week, is that I'm not completely sure what it all looks like.

I don't like to get into things that I don't know how it looks, what exactly that means for me, and all the details.

Control issues.

So instead of worrying about the details and getting frustrated because of no immediate answer, 

simply saying yes is all I have to do.

God has however placed a few things in my mind that I feel He has laid before me multiple times and I feel that it was confirmed this week that this is something I need to begin to do. 

I'll be real honest.

This week the Lord revealed to me my attitude towards some people I think highly of, but showed me the jealousy in my heart towards them and the way He is using them.

But then in a way as He has before showed me that the only person keeping me from being used, 

is me.

ouch.

I can give you 100 excuses and reasons why I don't do certain things He has pointed out.

Sheer. Obedience.

So no, I'm not sure exactly how it will all pan out. How or if I will be used if I step out and take a risk He is calling me to, but I said yes.

I want His fullness in my life.

Regardless of where I find myself.

I want to confidently answer yes to that question.

I am thankful that in the midst of what seems like extreme business and chaos that God met me this week. His presence was undeniable, indescribable, and there is no other place I would have rather been! 

I am excited about all that God is doing in our church, in the lives of some of my close friends, and it is my prayer that all that was experienced this week will begin to flourish in our daily lives.